Open Letter: It's Time to Close a Chapter

That's not probably a happy letter in this Christmas season but you know me and if you following me, well, it means that we share the appreciation of the grotesque paradox even in this period. It's also for this reason that I'm eternally grateful for your nearness!
On web/social world and marketing, we are led to represent a deceptive reality of our own perceptions to achieve own goals.
Paradoxically to the name chosen, Illusorya, I can't have such that morality. My art often represents Pain, in elegant style, as wants to be a comfort to those who feel such sensations; for myself and for you who support my work (not only economically), using Art as Therapy.

You know I prefer to be honest with you, ignoring the "social marketing's laws" . The resons: I can't, and still don't have the energy, to create captivating graphics and related to promoting.
And you know well that reality is sometimes colored, sometimes gray and sometimes total black.
For months, I've been going through a dark period that is taking especially my health (physical and mental). The lack of private details in this blog is tangible, because there is not only sharing with strangers' eyes, here; and I don't  want other responsibilities to face.

Since the birth of "Illusorya" , in latest years, I began along a journey of help. On a side, the sleeve gastrectomy surgery that gave me major control of Binge Eating Disorder. And, also, the specialist support to deal with other issues (I don't have a written document in my hands, if not words, can I call Mrs. Depression to report?). This took me wellness, I'm honest, but it has also builted a "mask of positivity" that has led me to face, surely certain responsibilities with much more courage, but also to perceive in an increasingly clear way the humiliation, as a result of my fights, often not mine.
I'm empty of everything: I invested my last savings on Illusorya and on physical and mental well-being, but the advent of AI, the crisis that this world is experiencing, and now the more recent health issues, as endometriosis (and therefore further expenses) took further damage to this fragile situation. I'm empty of the only hope of being able to leave this place.I've reached the awareness, at just 40 years old, that I will have no future and my last breath will surely still be in the place where I was born and where I still am.
Honestly, at this point I'm giving up.
I'm tired, so tired. I don't have the strength to paint anymore, to force myself to be on social media (as you know, it's the fuel for us small indie realities). I'd like to let things take their course while I hide from everything, in my cozy fantasy world.
Well, despite everything, inside my heart there are still many artistic ideas that are keeping me tied to this place. I promise you that I'm taking note of these for when I have a clearer mind and the inspiration to touch pencils and brushes!
Now, you can't imagine (or maybe you can) how difficult it was to reach this decision, but I'm sure that it can only bring good to my condition.

It's time to close a chapter

CLEARANCE SALE: 50% to 80% off everything
*While stocks last - No code needed

As you may have guessed from the very steep discounts: my work, investments and management costs will not be compensated by this sale. I won't have anything in my pocket, to be frank.
The real reason is the urgent need to empty myself, not only in a figurative sense, but above all regarding what I have created and that still surrounds me. I want my artworks and creations to go into benevolent hands and walls that can welcome them with the dutiful love they deserve.
This does not mean that I deprise my art, I would not dare. I just want to see emptiness around me, to see full empty the walls of my place ... And, why not, to see that little glimmer of hope that brings one more reason to return to create the phantom ideas that emerge, but that find no way now to become alive.

I hope you can enjoy this Clearance Sale as finally get the chance of adopting that work of art you have been longing for... Because you deserve it and, I know in my heart, that this work will be in loving hands!
If you don't able to adopt something but you wish to help make my cause, sharing on your social networks or to friends is the best free help you can give me.
Because it's your support, your love, your touching words, YOU. You are the protagonist of the Illusorya chapter, and you will be forever. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing my journey... With the hope of resuming this one soon, along with you again, when I will be back!

With Darkly Love
-Stefania-

PS: I sent this wish to newsletter's susbribers, but I think it's a good thing to share it here, with you:
[...] From my point of view, there is nothing more comforting than seeing and wishing for the other people's genuine happiness.
I wish, with all my soul, you may have Wonderful Holidays in the company of solitude or the souls dearest to your heart (this also applies to beloved pets!) and the opportunity to enjoy the well-deserved rest that you need so much (I feel it, uh).
This particular period also brings many thoughts, in good os bad way. I hope you may live peacefully with them, and not let yourself be carried away by certain overwhelming waves. Instead, let yourself be enveloped by the calm ones, the current could take you to a tiny but perfect island to settle down, for a vacation or maybe forever.
If you are having tearful during days and nights, like me, remember: your heart is not alone, even if it feels that way.
Take a breath. Take charge of your own places. Light up: even the faintest candlelight breaks the darkness.
This is my wish for you.